yesterday at whitestone.

it was really good. it took a while, but once again i was filled with the Holy Spirit.
also it was amazing to see someone really close to me get so involved, as he had been feeling so down.
in our "one minit of crazy acts" i went running out of white stone, ran down the road screaming and jumped on the grass, ran up the road again screaming, jumped on the grass and lay on my back, gripping hold of the grass as hard as i could, singing away in tongues!
i felt overfilled and so warm and EXTATIC!!!
when i got up i realised everyone had already gone in... lol

eeeeek g2g now, pringle is here to pick me up to go to the train station.
we're going to the JA center, hopefully ill be seeing some baptisms later.
wooo i can feel today could be a realy good day :D

peace out
xxx

lol what a difference...

lastnight was cool. went with Will, Tshaka and Squish to memorial park.
we got munch and played FRIZZZBEEEEE till like half 9.
yeah so it makes a huge difference to how things used to be.
instead of staying out till all houres of the night smokin drugs and getting into fights,
now its staying out till all houres of the night playing frizbee and praying ect...
this is awsum! :D
im mega happy.
\m/(^_^)\m/

yeah by the way im well awear i keep spelling PRAYER wrong... lol
so i was never any good at spelling, its not my fault, well it is but hey.

feeling alot more connected to God today.

im greatfull.

i felt realy worn down yesterday, and bad news of my moms illness realy didnt help matters. ive been praying for her alot.

yesterday i came to realise what was realy important in the long run.

as Will put it, i have a new man in my life now. the Lord.

it would seem that every time a little thing goes well, something terrible happens in return.

but im holding on. im just hoping everything is going to turn out well, and if not, im expecting to learn a great deal from the outcome.

whatever happens, im going to keep faith in God to show me what i need to see.

Praying for Will too. i feel he needs it, and i hope and trust everything will go well for him on tuesday.

i cant wait untill thursday... going to WhiteStone. yay, i realy like it there, its got an amazing feeling of peace about it. unlike my house, which i swear has got some form of evil possesing it... lol Will told me to be brave and order any demons in my bedroom to leave, i did that last night... and the result was some extreamly stange dreams about stiking up to the devil... lol. well back to doing my school work now, im ment to be doing art but my teacher has disapeared so i thought id come up to the libary and get some things off my chest. i feel alot better now.

toodlepip.

xxx

coincidence? i think not.
PE at school today. we had softball. bit like cricket. so we get changed and go outside...
argh its freeezing :( so im stood in a field with my mates, and they say to me "Lan, help us out, prey to God, he will listen to you..." so im stood there with them, preying for the sun to come out. lol. better than that, the teacher comes out and tells us to come to the sports hall. everyone stares at me... lol. on the way in i asked if we were coming back out. aparently we were
:( shame... later...
the whole PE group is split into two. one side will be sent outside again. "oh please Lord let us be on the side that stayins inside" and guess what, the Lord answered my preyer. again :D
i love the Lord.

one of the lost posts....

well we sort of sees it as (so i hav been taught) you cant just find god, god needs you. (scairy as it sounds) i duno its hard to explain but everything that you wana explain, you understand perfectly inside. because the mind and the mouth is part of the body, the body has great dificulty understanding the spirit, or putting the greatness you feel in the spirit into words. its like trying to describe an emotion, its so hard to put it into words, but you can feel it deep inside and you dont kno where it is coming from. you know how it feels, but you cant discribe it. when they delivered me (the excercism type thing) 3 people where praying for me, and then it went more, i dunno, sped up, more deep, more electric. and i could feel power in their hands and i could feel warm in my arms and legs and this warm tingle was being ripped out of my body through my head. and it made me tingle, cry, laugh. that feeling that makes you laugh when you are being tikled... its not cuz it is at all funny, but that feeling is more, irritation but it makes you laugh... and after they drove it out of me, i just wanted to cry, and i was so happy, and i felt like i was stoned, but without any bad bits, and now i feel more complete. and generally more joy.

thanks to a good friend of mine, Will, im finding it easier to face my family and friends.
and thanks to kwongers, (another mate) i have been more confident about "speaking" (tongues) outloud. that happened alot yesterday... esp around sam.
(very strongly against religion)
not so much today though. i dont feel very connected today for some reason...

"It is a mistake to assume that speaking in tongues is an evidence of one’s faith. To the contrary, the persons who seek signs and sign-gifts show their lack of faith. It is a sin for any Christian to seek for signs before he will believe God’s Word. As was pointed out earlier in this study, “tongues are for a sign, not to them that believe, but to them that believe not” (I Corinthians 14: 22). So you see, the Christians at Corinth were showing that they were weak in faith, and possibly some who identified themselves with the believer had never been saved. The person who seeks any sign, whether it be speaking in tongues or any other sign-gift, is either a babe in Christ or an unbeliever."

this is a bit worrying...

it would apear that someone really doesnt want things to work for me this week.
lol. my pens keep running out of ink, but work fine for anyone else,
my lighters wont light, but do fine for anyone else.
and now look, my previous posts have all disapeared!!!
whats going on??!
oh well. lol

a visit to the Jesus Army

well we sort of see it as (so i hav been taught) you cant just find god, god needs you. (scairy as it sounds) i duno its hard to explain but everything that you wana explain, you understand perfectly inside. because the mind and the mouth is part of the body, the body has great dificulty understanding the spirit, or putting the greatness you feel in the spirit into words. its like trying to describe an emotion, its so hard to put it into words, but you can feel it deep inside and you dont kno where it is coming from. you know how it feels, but you cant discribe it. when the delivered me (the excercism typ thing) 3 people where praying for me, and then it went more, i duno sped up, more deep, more electric. and i could feel power in their hands and i could feel warm in my arms and legs and this warm tingle was being ripped out of my body through my head. and it made me tingle, cry, laugh. that feeling that makes you laugh when you are being tikled... its not cuz it is at all funny, but that feeling is more, irritation but it makes you laugh... and after they drove it out of me, i just wanted to cry, and i was so happy, and i felt like i was stoned, but without any bad bits, and now i feel more complete. and generally more joy.

thanks to a good friend of mine, Will, i am managing to stay strong, and face my parents and friends without fear, its going to be a hard journey, but i think it is egzactly what ive been waiting for.

woo first post...

woo this is my first blog post thingy.

not sure of what to write atm,

i guess the words will come to me and flow out, as they have been alot today...
yeah i think ill write a proper blog when ive done my profile and everything.
peace out.

xxx